What the heck is this?

What is this thing I am going through? Life that is. Are the rest of you real? Or is it like the eminently watchable Spanish movie I keep watching whenever I get time? Are you all virtual images created by my mind?

I am a doubting Thomas as far as mysticism is concerned. I keep swinging between hard core atheist and reasonable, secular, private religious guy who always loathes intolerant religion aficionados. Mind you, this can even include atheism depending on how the proponents portrays it for the rest of us. I know that all modern common religions are plain stupid and wrong.

Had it not been for the indoctrination and conditioning during childhood, nobody would even care a flying fart about this stuff. Only dumb and opportunistic people who take advantage of them would have been practicing most of the religions. plus they might die a natural death minus all the extreme respect for the religious sentiments, much like other ideologies for eg. the real Marxism. And with this, at worst the religions would be as harmless a belief in astrology. No one will kill another for not believing in a tarot reader, right? Well, mostly. Wow. what a world it would have been. Kids will choose what to listen to at whatever time they feel an urge to listen to whatever stuff they have to listen.

Some part of eastern religions hinduism, budhism, etc might be correct. I am not saying this because of my possible conditioning. I came out of those effects at the right times thanks to less severe brain damage caused by conditioning in most of the Hindu families in Kerala (where Hindus are almost apologetic or ashamed in extreme cases about being religious). Probably the only bad, horrible thing in Hinduism is the casteism spread over every aspect of it. A dumb, illogical dimwit is considered a learned man if he has a sacred thread around his body.

Atheism sounds like a great idea if I was conditioned and/or indoctrinated with one of the Abrahamic religions and then started reading scores of books and listening to other points of view. The arguments in those religions are very weak or downright stupid thanks to the advancement of science. Lack of tolerance only makes it a thousand times worse.

On the other hand, I refuse to give in to the likes Richard Dawkins, as it is very difficult to believe it all starts when an egg meets a sperm and it goes to null and void with lack of electricity to brain. There has to be something more going on here than what Mr. Richard Dawkins is preaching. By the way, he is as much a priest as Pope would be, from where I look. He is an elitist and thinks he is superior because of this atheistic views about the world. If you have any doubt about this, try listening carefully to "The God Delusion" audio book from him.

Right now, I am a bit bored of typing. So please tune in for the rest of this. And please do comment. I would like to know honest opinions from other humans around. That is if you are not manifestations of my mind. If it is indeed, my mind is an awesome thing. It has imagined quite a lot about the whole setup.


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